
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Oh Baby

Friday, January 8, 2010
BIG
So I just quickly wanted to blog about a cool thing God did this week.
While sparing you the majority of the details Matt and I have had a rough week. Finances are really tough right now, maybe tougher than ever. And in addition, I have been saturated in my pride and not wanted to share that with anybody. But, like most struggles, when handed over to the Lord it can be transformed into a beautiful opportunity for growth. Matt and I have existed on our knees for the past week. It has been scary at times, yet we know that we stand on the Rock (Colt McCoy).
But here is the sweet God story:
I have felt consumed with fear at times this past week. Then yesterday I got a text from a girl from our youth group that she needed to talk. She became a Christian about 2 years ago and we have gotten very close. But the past semester has been hard, the world has wooed her.
But my God is in the work of restoration. I love to see God bring the lost to him, but just as much I love love love to see him go after the wanderers. And he is going after this girl! I was able to listen to her as she realized that she is being pursued! God is coming after her! He is jealous for her! I got to listen to her as she realized that the world has nothing for her, as she realized that she is loved by a God that has been on the back burner of her heart for a semester. I saw it in her teary eyes that she felt pursued! Ah-I'm making a scene at Panera. Our God is so big! If He can save the lost, if he can drawn back the wanderer to himself with his love, then he can pay bills! Who cares about money?! As C.S. Lewis said "Aslan is on the move!"
So that's my rant. What felt like such a consuming struggle for most of the week now seems minimal. The mountain of finances is a molehill in light of the power of God.
As I sit here inhaling the addicting scent of Cinnamon Crunch bagels I am praying that you can experience our BIG God today. I'm praying that whatever feels insurmountable today will be conquered by the truth that our God moves mountains.
Zephaniah 3:17 claims that "The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness;he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing."
I wish I knew had to better finagle this fancy smancy blog thing so I could have you listen to this song, but until I learn I'll just give you the lyrics. My all time song of encouragement: He's Always Been Faithful To Me by Sara Groves.
Morning by morning I wake up to find
the power and comfort of God's hand in mine.
Season by season I watch him amazed, in
awe of the mystery of his perfect ways
CHORUS:
All I have need of his hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me
I can't remember a trial or a pain he did
not recycle to bring me gain. I can't
remember one single regret in serving
God only and trusting his hand
This is my anthem, this is my song, the
theme of the stories I've heard for so long.
God has been faithful, he will be again.
His loving compassion, it knows no end.
So, sit back and rest in the big loving arms of God. Look at your situation and say in my semi-gangster husbands words "It ain't no thang." ;)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
2K10
I get overloaded with motivation around the New Year. Also, there is no other time that I feel so refreshed by the Lord. I'm so thankful for his forgiveness and his refreshment. I feel full of energy, ideas, and goals. Ah wonderful goals. But more on that in a minute.
When I was in high school I would spend 4-5 hours every New Years day journaling and praying about the previous year and dedicating the upcoming year. Although I couldn't talk Micah into taking a 4 hour nap on New Years this year, I have enjoyed some time reflecting.
2009 made a run for one of the best years of my life. It was packed full of 'firsts.' I was pregnant for the first time. I had back pain for the first time in my life. I experienced 10/10 pain for the first time in my life (labor, obviously.) I had a baby. I brought someone back with CPR. Matt started his first official youth pastor job in May. We bought our first home. I cooked with prosciutto for the first time. I found a workout video that actually works. I hiked a mountain while nursing a newborn.
The year was also packed with refinement. The refinement was so deep, so intimate. It was about learning who I was "post-Micah" as a wife, a friend, a daughter, a sister, a mentor. It was about realizing that nothing will make me a good mom more than further understanding and grasping God's grace and understanding with me. Refinement came in super size through some tough relationship issues as well.
And just like every year, God has been so beautifully faithful. And wonderfully gentle. This past year could have been brutal! I could have had post partum depression ( although I was crazy for about 3 weeks!), I could have been disappointed or unmotivated as a new mom, Matt and I could have had a tough year through the changes. But God's blessing poured down. And the refinement I have experienced have been accompanied with God's gentle leading hand and the whisper of his promises.
So, now, 2010! Here are my resolutions/goals. Bear with me, I know some of them are silly. ( By the way, silly has become a predominant word in my daily vocabulary, thank you Micah T)
*No pop all year
*No candy bars all year
*Memorize Scripture with my brother
*Meet with one girl from Matt's youth group every week. Matt and I want to increase the interpersonal aspect of ministry, hoping that more kids will know that they are loved and that they can begin to see life through a 'God lens.'
*Write one note every week
*Put energy into my spiritual gifts, primarily teaching. It's only a dream and prayer right now but I would love to lead a retreat for the girls at our church about purity, beauty, and relationships.
Ok, I'm being long winded. Happy New Year fellow bloggers!
